In any relationship, whether your best friend, your lover, your sister or your mother, there are going to be plenty of moments where what one half of the union needs is the complete opposite of what the other half would benefit from.
A person I love very much has never had an easy time facing the pain they cause in others. This person is one of the hardest working people I have ever known. They are spontaneous, fun, and amazing with surprises. Adventure should be their middle name and life with them is never boring. You can talk to them about any subject. Their curiosity and intelligence will accommodate stimulating conversation most of the time. But try to bring up a way you have felt pain by them and it is change the subject, laugh it off and at best better brush it under the heaviest rug on the planet.
This person told me to let go of the past. I guess some of the healing that could have come over the years has been stunted because they never owned up to their portion of what went wrong. Never said, "I'm sorry". Never claimed responsibility for my broken heart. Exasperated this evening they said to me, "I hurt you!?"
I was stunned. Tears in my eyes, I brushed it all back underneath the surface and told the sleeping beast now wide awake to return to its slumber.
It isn't easy when one person's pain is healed in one manner while the person they hurt needs the exact opposite to find healing. And I guess this is when I have to put on my big girl panties, and give it over to the Divine. I guess it is time to lift it to the light and let it go. Truth is, this person loves me and took care of me and has held me close for many years. It just would have been nice had they been able to validate the silent pain I held on to for so long.
Since they are not able, and I adore all that is right in this soul...I must now lift it up and let it go...May my pain blow away on this Winter wind. May I shed my last tears from the pain I held within. May I relinquish my grief to the Great Spirit who truly knows me. May I weep no more. May I hold on to the love. May I hold on to the laughter. May I hold on to every good thing our love ever created. I anticipate greatness. I lift myself up to the light. I will become the best of me. Holding on to yesterday's pain will get me nowhere.
Rivers run deep. Dark caverns know. The light is replete with sorrows let go. I love my life and every twist it takes. I shake off my sorrow. From slumber awake. It is well. It is well with my soul.
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