Ambien

Breaking down spoken pieces
Words gone arye
These thoughts of mine
Never stop
Inside this rapid cycling brain
Well suited to my name
Go ahead & call me Rain
My pain is the Mother's tears
Years of built up emotion
Oceans of energy
Remembering me
In every orifice of this life
My strife is only due
To those things done incorrectly
And I continue suspecting
When we're going to do this right
Sight over sound
I am glad that you found me
Now
I am awake but still dreaming
Finding meaning in every image
Presented to me like puzzle pieces
Releasing hope
For a picture completed
Seating floats through memories
Competing for space
In my cognitive race
Waiting for a page in my journal
To write themselves remembered
Relevant to all things unsaid
Unspoken but never broken
We are not the spokes in the wheel
We are the vehicles of change
Rearranging Tetris pieces
Until I am as effective
As I ever will be
These wings of freedom
Sing new melodies
Harmony yet unsung
Sleep with me
And by that I mean
Lay next to me and close your eyes
Ride waves of cloud consciousness
Restlessness dissipates
And pillows of dreams
Mean I will wake up
Ready to face the day
Clay pots rot over time
Holding wine
But I feel sublime
When I sleep at your side
Tides roll in and out
Of mindful thought
Wrought with circadian rhythms
And hearts brought to their knees
Freezing time
Present in the moment at hand
I feel restless
Longing to shake this state
Anticipating movement
Moving on the the next page
This chapter written
Doors open
Next phase
Trying so hard to ammend
My anxiety ridden ways
I breathe heavy these days
So many thoughts
Clogging my neural passageways
Keep my hope at bay
Their hatred cannot
Bury my brightest day
It comes in waves
All i want is for it to go away
Hear what I say?
Actively participate
In solving the maze
Better and better as I sway
Saying words to encourage my soul to stay
You were my greatest Zeitgeber
For my circadian soul day
Rhythm concentrated
As my heart began to sway
Amber odds were against me
And I wish I could've stayed
Against your chest
Divest my best
Rest in your bed that day
Mabye you wouldn't have decided
To play chicken with our flesh
Buffalo wild wings singing songs
A destiny less divine
I miss you all the time
Cycle upside down
I long to escape
I am already far from this place
No desire for time to waste
No desire to run the rat race
Spaces in between the noise
Conversations with lonely boys
No size or season for moral spoils
I need coils of recalcitration
You create a sensation in the
Base of my spine
But love is more than the
Tingling time spent yearning
I am annoyed with ordinary life
I need dancing hippie grass music
Fed by sunshine and water
Hopeful conversations filled with harmony
Advancing thoughts of world order
Progressive change
And peace filled momentum
I am persuing personal achievment
Checking my meter daily
Quarter feeding seeds for the sewing
Rowing my boat harder, stronger
Enjoying the moment more as I go
This Ambient life of mine

Risen

We're getting drunk
And We're driving
We're working hard
And We're surviving
What does life really mean?
And we're surmising
What's it all about?
And we're comprising.


The answer lies dormant
In the back of my brain
So many people
Like to call me insane
But for this beautiful life
I could never complain
And when I figure it out
I promise I'll explain


Dancing on moments
As higher we rise
Eyes of the gods
As we stand side by side
An individual mind
Cannot soar quite as high
As when we hold hands
And put down our pride


Let's forget about the money
And focus on pollution
A lack of education
Is what causes the confusion
Size matters not
In this seizmic solution
An individual who changes
Could fuel a revolution


You could become
A modern day Confuscius
Open up their eyes
And show them where the truth is
Greet a brand new day
Where it doesn't matter
Where the loot is
Follow the trunk of the tree
And show them where the root is


Go back to Khemet
And practice ancient mathematics
No need to find substance
In political acrobatics
There's plenty of food
To keep every people fed
We just need to rearrange
The contents of our head


So here is a call
To every person lying dormant
Here's an invocation
To every Nike on the doormat
Open the door
And see what's inside
Is the path you have chosen
Narrow or wide?


Here's an invitation
To every body holding breath
Honor the path of your destiny
And truly give your best
I promise you my heartbeat
Until I've no life left
I'll give every ounce of energy
So our future may be blessed


The greatest power
Of any people
Is to believe that we can change
One voice can make a difference
Begin a revolutionary wave
We are our salvation
The one's we've been waiting for
We have the key that fits the lock
And opens up the door


It is our time to rise!

Pisces

Simply the sight of you
Causes my soul to dance
The chemistry of our connection
Speaks stories
Of old school elegance
Your broad shoulders
Hold the planets upon them
Your abdomen conducts
Mathematical algorithms
Swimming upstream
This positive emotion
Potions released
As I sleep in your arms
The charm of you arises
From the honesty of your smile
The miles feel easy
As we engage the Nile
Flood waters rise
I feel the tides are turning
Looking forward to
The next chapter in my journey
Yearning for you
Already as you go
But the way you walked away
Says you already know
I feel so satiated
By one night on your chest
I'm divesting my soul
For yours to digest
We rest on the cosmic
Space between us
Trust simply understood
Not needing to be spoken
Broken hearts keep bodies cold
Lying alone hoping
Since the first day I met you
I've been scoping the view
Waiting for the moment
To write this poem of you
Truth is I mean it
When I say you are beautiful
God body rise
Erasing the cubicle
American dreaming
Will never do
And I am engaged
By the color of your hue
Soul speak deep
No labels needed
My nautical chart
Follow the stars I am heeding
Bleeding out sadness
Rising as I go
I would tell you
I love you
But you already know

Homeless?

Oh Hi there

Can I  talk to you

It will only take a minute or two

Do you have the time

To open up your mind

These things that I will share

You may find that you don’t care

I may get a little loud

But please don’t shut me out

For if you walk away

I won’t beg you much to stay

If you leave me be

I’ll tell my story to the tree

My dreams will become nightmares

Friendly smiles will turn to stares

My mind will turn to goo

Oh please let me talk to you

Oh no please don’t walk away

I am lonely here, please stay

There’s so much on my mind

Please say you have the time

I was a man in my last life

Please don’t smirk. It isn’t nice

My mother was a tree

Oh please don’t laugh at me

One time I flew into the sun

I never really told no one

So please don’t tell a soul

They’ll throw me back into the hole

I once had an orgy with the sky

And since then I’ve been unable to fly

If you don’t stop laughing

I’ll walk away

What was that

What did you say

You think I’m nuts

I’ll have to say

You’ve got some guts

I’m sick of all you crazy lads

Telling me you think I’m mad

I am the only one who is even close to sane

And all of you are all my pain

I’m tired of all your ugly lies

Constantly you make me cry

The man I was talking to was in my mind

And it seemed to me he had no time

So I sent him far away

I brushed my fingers through my hair

 And stripped my clothes till I was bare

And laid down upon the bench

I pulled my clothes to cover me

Closed my eyes and tried to sleep

I slept restlessly for an hour or two

Then the sun came up and my sleep was through

I scurried up

Got on my clothes

Leaned over to a nearby bush

And picked a bright red rose

(which was actually a weed)

I ran to the corner diner

Lifted the lid and climbed inside

The people there were sometimes friendly

It was a good place for me to hide

I ordered my breakfast quickly

And sat down at a booth nearby

My waitress brought my food

 And a rat scurried by

I ate and paid my fare

I left the place without a care

I had to work today

Today was not a day for play

I had to take a shower first

So I went to the  town bath hall

A neighboring restaurant hose

A bath is a pleasure that everyone knows

I took a bath

Inside my clothes

A man came out and said

Stop using my hose

I couldn’t believe the audacity

Of this man coming in and looking at me

People had no respect anymore

Manners to them were just a chore

I walked away

My bathing cut short

I had to run

I had to get to work

I grabbed my bag

And rushed to be on time

Oh I hoped this day

Would turn out to be fine

I rushed to my first stop

And picked up the lid

A loud blast

A gun

I  think I’m hit

My blood rushed out

My heart went numb

Well, hell this ain’t no fun

I went down with a bang

I fell with a thud

My beautiful dress was splattered with blood

Large footsteps walked up next to me

And said

Finally now my trash is free

Of these homeless little refugees

A look of horror crossed my face

And slowly I drifted from this place

My little life formed into a frown

And from the afterlife looking down

My thoughts by silence soon were drowned

And in my mind I could only hear

Those footsteps that had come so near

Now I’m free of the homeless

I was so confused

I didn’t understand

I wasn’t stupid

So I’ll be damned

Why I got shot by that big old man

For taking trash out of his garbage can

And why did he call me homeless

I had a home

I was not strange

And in no slight way was I derainged

So why then was my status changed

By a bullet from living to dead

He shot me in the head

But why?

I wasn’t homeless

Was I?

My Only Cure

Need I speak

For you should know

What feeling have I now

But feel you don’t and

Know you won’t so

Go and have your cow

Walk away and let me be

I just want to be alone

I’m tired of all this restlessness

I feel so re-abused

I don’t think you’ll ever know

The pain inside my head

And I don’t think you’d even wince

If tomorrow I were dead

My heart’s not here

It’s somewhere else

As forever it will be

And no one knows just where it’s at

And yes, that includes even me

So when you feel so all alone

Just bite your tongue and sigh and

Know that I don’t give a damn

Don’t bother asking why

I’ll live my life how I see fit

And then I’ll choose to die

So call me ass or hypocrite

Dreams are made of pie

You eat them and you shit them out

Turn around and eat some more

You get so drunk that you can’t stand

And pass out before the door

So wander on your aimless search

No answer will you find

For spirit and for spirit things are just a waste of time

This philosophy may kill me young

But at least I’m not a lie

So kill yourself of shave your head

Or join a cult or stay in bed

Cause I don’t care no more

I’m restless and awaiting life that only comes thru dying

I’m tired of fears and tired of tears and

Sick to death of trying

So find all of those who shut me out and lay on them the blame

And quietly just shut your mouth

As I fall and go insane

Cause I don’t care about your antics of

Saving me from harm

I’m sorry if I caused you pain

But save your pathetic charm

I’m not in love and I don’t give a damn

For what you feel

For all of life is one big lie

After all, nothing’s real

So feed my ego, Feed my pride

And feed me drugs until I die

Then no one can cause me pain

And no one can call me insane

Romanticism is for the birds

And love is just the same

I don’t ever want to know

The meaning of your game

So touch me not

For you will burn inside a fractured second

Go away

Leave me alone

And please don’t preach of heaven

For hell is all I’ll ever know

And for all I really care

You can take your worthless soul and go there

Worn and bare

For I am sick of being used

And being walked upon

And if it my dear were not for you

I would have already travelled on

For death is my companion

And soon I’ll slip away

And I’m sorry to inform you

It means nothing what you say

So get the hell away from me

And leave me here alone

For I have just got rid of you

My life is now my own

To live for death and ruin love

And spit my whit of bitterness upon the lucid sky

So hate me now or go and cry

It matters not to me

Just leave me here in this pool

Of worthless dark self pity

I hate you! Please just go away

I mean it now. I’m sure

Oh my god what have I done

You were my only cure

Flame Dancer

Deep into the cup
Cobalt blue
My turquoise bracelet
Belonged to you
In between pages
Of rainbow hue
I slipped sweet melodic
Empowering view
She dances daily
Upon the stars we are
Elavated slavery
Reflected in part
Particles of perfection
Like atomic waves
And we are simply
"The Keeper of the Flame"
(Nina Simone)

Sea

Sparking waves
Against traditional thought
May seem as treachery to some
Summing up our differences
As though they
Should be added at all
Small minds
May have not left room
To invoke their ignorance
To be seen as anything
Other than innocence
Ignorance is in deed
The absence of knowledge
Fodder and soldered to
The wrought iron fence
Defenses arise
When one is afraid
Perhaps
When one receives
The sensation
Of being attached
Attracted to opposites
To quash the need to
Understand
White-washing the defenseless
Seems a little senseless
To me
As though the only right way to be
Is the image of right
They have created
For all the world to see

Real Love

Thoughts like pencil drawings
Erased and then retraced
Mason jars of captured thought
Slow stewed and honestly wrought
Sought after by many kings
Bringing me gifts of sundry things
Particles of notions
Swim like oceans inside my head
Dread locked and woven
Into my chest
Harder to breathe
Orders of rhythms
New and intricate to find
Mine fields of explosive action
Reaction to dissatisfaction
Pre-determined arrangements
Estranging and turning into
Liquid pavement
When is my king simply
Gonna come and save me?
We orchestrate sections of thought
Hope at some point
They begin to harmonize
With one another
Mysteries rise and fall from
Between my legs
To between my breast
I am not beset
Merely discouraged
My softly once readily evident
Has been replaced
By the beast that used to
Sleep in my pocket
Waiting for the right moment
To rise to Queendom
I now run from the sound of my voice
Aware of my rise to precedence
I want to see the evidence
Why am I faded to steel and stone?
I hate to be alone and long
Only to be held
Meld with another
Until of us a child is born
I mourn the loss of yesterme
Fear the path it takes
To arrive at my destination
Awaiting the sensation I crave
The return of real love

Paper Moon

Play the game
Swish and sway
Like moments before the crush
The push is all we will ever need


Wings spread
East to West
Digest this list
Like angels of Budapest
Sleep on mountains
Dreaming of change


Warfare
Dished out drowsily
Strangers dancing
On the tip of shattered glasses
Passionate kisses
Drinking in
Love's tomorrow


Sorrow slips away
Feathers into
A paper moon

Rain

Seamless
The myst rises unobtrusive
Stimulating me
As it tingles the surface
Of my skin
The silence of the river
Just before it crosses
The precipice
Now the surge of a waterfall
Loud
Magnificent
I rise from my knees
Engaged
Exuberant
Timeless
The cyclical passage of water
It travels forging gorges
It rises to meet the clouds
Falling from the sky
Cleansing our atmosphere
It lubricates the air we breathe
Would that I could jump and dissipate
Becoming one with the water
We often take for granted
Planting my feet
Firm in the Earth
I leave my burdens
To the water as it falls
And walk away
Stronger than I was before

Souls On Fire

I silently pull at these
Heart strings
Singing songs that will not be heard
By anyone other than myself & the divine
Sublime messages
Present themselves like
One
Puzzle piece at a time
I am reminded daily
By the things
That cause me sway
The beauty of the Universe
Inside the pupil of an eye
The eye inside the intelligent chest
The vested interest we all share
With the ones we care about
Open arms and open mouths
Shout it out loud and clear
From the rooftops
Socks drop off feet
As we dance rapidly
To the rhythmic beat
Heat high on overdrive
Like I am sweating
Just because I am alive
We dive into the thickness
Scratch our way
Throught the thicket
I am in this to win it
I will not shut up and die
Shark dive into blood infested waters
I am alive for our sons and
I am alive for our daughters
One more life can I yet offer
And I will give all I can
So our future profits
We scoff sometimes
At what we don't understand
The righteous rule
Of a leader's hand
We reprimand the unwilling to learn
And spurn those away
Who have nothing valid to say
We stray from our safety zone
And learn what it really means
To believe in sacred things
"I sing just to know I'm alive"
Nina Simone


The harmony of the spheres
Feeling peace
After all these years
Standing up for myself
One moment at a time


Like
No, you can't catch a ride
Cuz you love to disappear
After I just drove forty five
So we could all enjoy our night
Constantly slipping you dimes
Payin so you can get inside
Cuz your dollar bill already gone
My song loudly carries
And I am limiting my bearings
To nauticals that keep me close to home
Close to the bone
Ready to hone in
Cuz I only reach to save people
Ready to swim
If you ain't in it to win it
Then sit the fuck down!
Tell yourself can't one more time
And count yourself out
Cuz if you intend to walk with me
We're walking hard
And we're walking devout
Penetrate the promenade
Of the average full of doubt
See I will make it so
Cuz I am number one
Breathing in deep
The light of the Sun
And I won't sit down
Till the battle is done
Cuz I won't be satisfied
Till the victory is won
Souls on fire
My one desire
To be everything I can be
In this life

Societal Suicide

Effervescent forever bubble
Journies to the center of my mind
Double time dub-step
Marching cadence over rhyme
We sign language side-step
The slender body over dressed
Like she doesn't know
My Sunday best
Is what she slept in late last night
Her teeth are perfect
No overbite
Frightened eyes like she just might
Get a little wild tonight
Knock that ball right out of sight
Perfect height; model thickness
But her pumps are where the bills at
We sat there staring at her
Like a flashing neon sign
She perfect by design
But ask her what's inside
The clinical divide
Thoughts of suicide
No flashing neon sign
Take a wide angle lense
From the corner of her soul
See the kind of thoughts here
Taking control
Small white pills
Mark their territory
Five story window
Never high enough
Her mental got her rough
She's been polishing her bluff
They just don't focus enough
Beyond the physical line
She's begging for one
To look into her eyes
See beyond the easy to surmise
She don't feel
So perfect inside

Kiss

Your kiss fogged up the glass
On the window of my soul
My control blew away
The first time your eyes said hello
I slow danced around a pole
That should have functioned as a fire escape
This escapade has
Taken my breath away
We satiate in one another
This need to commit
To nothing that is ordinary
Nothing not truly lived
I give of myself
My journey so far
And your strength
Could emasculate
The weight of a car
This ton of pressure building
Now sits on my chest
And my breath syncopates
With your strokes
As we lift
Life to the fullness
Sky is the limit
Cuz I'm in this to win it
No matter what it might be
Season for the saunter
I turn the key against the ponder
Because your kiss is
A delicious mystery

So Far

We are a generation
Of voice mail conversations
Registered exchanges
And pre-determined arrangements
We are alarm clock scheduled coffee
Over breakfast that we eat
Convincing ourselves it's healthy
Even though we know that it's not
We are at war with
A system that is broken
And even the most outspoken
Have only travelled so far


We are a heart that is pumping pure blood
Yes
We are a heart that is seeking true love
Yes
But what I've got to know is
What are we dying of?


So here I stand
In the center of my temple
Offering myself up as a vessel
Please use me as you need
In these times of darkness
To my voice may they hearken
Cuz my people are straight sobbin
And I would love to set them free


Free from the prison that we have created
Free from the chains
That keep us enslaved and frustrated
Free from the lines
Society has made and
Fuck my patience
It is our time to rise


We are on the brink of spiritual starvation
What we need is aggragation
Of our cultural soil
We have toiled long
We must not tarry
And no matter how scary
The next months may become
We must stand up
Taller
Than ever before

Glistening Star

Glistening Star
Who are you?
Can you tell me what will be?
Can you open up my tiny mind?
So that my eyes can see?
Can you give to me the vision
That will help the world be whole?
Can you give to me a cooling balm
To soothe my people's soul?
Oh Glistening Star, my Angel
Do you know me by my name?
Can you look into these human eyes
And know we are the same?
Can you see me through this ego?
The one that blocks my view...
The thing that twists and turns my path,
As I try to head for you?
Glistening Star, where are you?
I can no longer see your face.
I long to touch and hold you
And to bask in your embrace
Glistening Star, are you listening?
I am baring my soul to thee
Are you my friend or a warrior?
Do you come with a knife
Or on bended knee?
Glistening Star, I am fading
No more energy left in me
But I promise in the next life
I will dilligently search for thee
Glistening Star, this is it
This is the last breath
I have to take
So star, I hope and pray and wish
That you were not a fake

Trich (WARNING X-RATED)

Laugh with me
Cuz my pussy now registered by the C-D-C
Cuz I caught an S-T-I
Which is as close to an S-T-D
As I would ever like to be
And no it ain't H-I-V
But this shit just ain't sittin right with me


That's why I took a vow of abstinence
To give my soul time
To collect new evidence


Cuz I can see this only as recompense
That's why I'm on my knees nightly
Offering up penitence
And after six times around
It could only be considered arrogance
If I took this shit lightly
Which is why I'm on my spiritual flow
Nightly
So that I just might be
Freed from these little demons
Here inside me


I know we all have needs
But I'm trying to set my spirit free
So next Brother wanna talk to me
Better plan on walking hard with me


Cuz I got a trich up my sleeve
And you better believe
I'm ardently begging
For the reprieve of a bad situation
And no
I'm not craving your penetration
I'm actively awaiting
The chance to birth a brand new nation
I guess what I'm saying
Is next time before you do something that
Feels so good
Take a moment and let it be understood
I never expected to arrive in this place
And it is definitely time for a change
So I swish and sway my way
Into a definite rearrange
Working so hard at my play by play
Cuz I just keep getting stronger
Every single day
I never intended to be a slave
To any thing
Or any place
I'll rise up tall to a brand new view
Wave and just remember
How far I came
"And I still got so terribly far to go"
Nina Simone

Spent, I

Give me this

Limitless

This Freedom

A soul that will put an end to my seeking

Cause I have roamed the globe

Searching high and low for a soul that will match my own

Now I sit alone

Stone cold and crazy

Staring through the possibilities

Of the hazy maybes

Waiting for the afterbirth of yesterday’s babies

To give me a promise of a future yet to come

Cause I have run the race

Doubled back double time and broke the pace

Wasting nothing I gained the respect of breath

Deflecting fears off my chest like a shield

I set this tachyon pulse thruster to yield

I am vacuum sealed and ready for shipment

Let me open up my hand and show you what my grip meant

Cause I’ve been everywhere I was ever sent

Now I’m spent

Lying naked on your bed

Head clogged and soul spun dizzy

I thought this shit through fifteen different ways since Sunday

And one day I believe I will look back on thirty three and see a future that made sense

But right now, I’m just not there yet

So let me open up my hand for that dollar bill

Close my eyes and keep hoping still

That somebody will see me and the need I’m in

And give me something new to sink my teeth in

Cause I am empty and broke

Hungry and cold

Even if I am standing on the threshold of this new house

Looking past the door that I’m supposed to be so happy about

Laughter lies languid inside a liquid box

Fragile marked on the outside

Do not dare drop

Sock to the stop line

I am slipping in to overtime

Can anybody spare that dime?

Or should I just give up

Something inside me says I’m gonna make it

My fear just as real and I just can’t shake it

Anybody know what this look on my face meant

Best explain it

Cause I’m so far gone it ain’t funny no more

Up

I am walking with
Some deep anxiety
Struggling to breathe
Working hard
At regulating
This heart inside of me
I have some elements in front of me
Truly attempting at bombarding me
Disarm the thing
My wings are spread
But I'm afraid to fly
Sizing up
What I'm about to try
Fill my cup
Overflow the sides
I am wising up
To this strength inside

We

We
Are rummaging across forest floor
Pouring soul tears
Naming fears
And wandering just a little too far
Into the ethereal realm
Helmet strapped and ready for action
Satisfaction based
Upon the good of the whole

Zone

I am dizzy
Spread too thin
I fold my wings
Hide within my cocoon
Marooned on this
Island of soul
Stolen hearts speak
Freak accident
My incredible nature


The stature of my growth
Beyond measure
I have weathered this storm
Armored in my proximal zone
Of development
Enveloped in
The impermeable membrane
My brain is pulsing
The heavy energy
Of new thought
Wrought with hewn metals
Meddling up to
A designated destiny
Divesting the best of me
And at the same time
Admitting to my "worst behavior" Drake
I never claimed to be your Savior
Just a girl with a heart concerned
This momentous age
Of change

Synthesizer

I'm just about as dope as dopamine
Step aside America for a new regime
god body rise as we spread our wings
We are about to give way to greater things
Automatic sipping of the waters of life
Rise into the ethereal
Let go of strife
Cause I would say I'm willing to give my life
For those things I believe are right

Sight

The pupil of my eye
Is the sea of my soul
And my Wu Wei Flow
Cannot be controlled
By what you think
of those things I choose
Using truth
These things I do
You go to sleep
With your own soul at night
So I advise you to do this right

Implode

I will not sleep for a month
Too much work to be done
This conversation makes you wanna run
Are you coming undone?
The Sun is moving closer
Roving the Earth for new treasure
Is money meant to be a measure?
What is the cost of a soul?
Control by those
With the money and power
Shower our wealth
This ivory tower
But where will we go?
One our before
The core of our planet Explodes?

Flash Forward

Drink in the waters of life
Necessary to survive
Wings spread
And ready to fly
The why
Remains emblazoned
Across the sky
We fry deep fatty tissues
I wish I could say
I didn't miss you
But truth resonates beyond hue
And I'm gonna do this
Because I have to
And I am going to keep marching
Until I accrue
Enough support
To do what we came to do