For D

For D

I am dancing around the precipice of Death

Edging up against the knife

For I know there is nothing left

Darkness hangs heavy in my carefully measured soul

I am doubting my placement here

Have I not paid all the tolls?

God said he had a purpose

For my life. I believed this true

I have waited for my children, my wife, I waited long for you

Where is the truth in a world gone numb?

They stand before their idols:

Deaf, blind, dumb

I am waiting for the significance of

Imposable thumbs unused to be rendered as abuse

There is really nothing wrong with me

It is this factor not many see

I am seeing way too much and it really weighs on me

When is my vocation gonna open up and swallow me?

I walk for miles in the pouring rain

Chanting mantras and Bible Verses

Those who are average call me insane

I hate the labels ladened upon the reverent back

I think if I hear one more ism I may suffer heart attack

I am not your ordinary missionary

I long to shake the world

I long to reach into their eyes and wake up every boy and girl

We have come a long march away from soul centered anything

I sing broken songs now

Because my voice refuses to sing

I wish for just one who really hears me

One to walk with me always

I praise the Lord for the life I was given

But I am not grateful for the way

The world around me falters and makes me feel so caged

These spiritual wars are waged for the welfare

Of some who do not even dare

To open their eyes and see

The possibilities here for you and me

I dance on the precipice of death

But I will not give in to him just yet

 

 

Life

In this individualistic Western Culture, it is often too easy to focus on oneself in an expensive spiritual fashion. I have been accused of being arrogant more than once. I met with a close soul to mine to ask for guidance, words of wisdom, some type of spiritual message his soul may have for mine. With gentle words and a cautious and reverant spirit, he offered me a blessing. He said to be a part of the bigger picture without a false sense of humility. He cautioned me not to downplay my significance but reminded me we are a much bigger force than individual. I needed his words and am grateful for his presence in my life.


After our luncheon, I met with the Director/Editor of Panyha Foundation which is a remarkable organization for Lao-Americans and with a focus on raising education and cultural awareness with a global people in mind. I will be writing for them, along with interviewing refugees and second generation Lao-Americans, while also editing and adding a poetic twist to articles already written. I am excited to be on board and feel that this will only add to the strength of my soul.


My mission is strong and I knew I was ready for the next step of the game. I am humbled by both meetings this afternoon. I have much yet to learn. It was intoxicating to me spiritually that the second encounter echoed largely the first and that the spiritual ramifications surrounding me offered deep messages that I am still interpreting. While sitting in the Panyha Conference Room, I noticed a printed statement regarding leadership on the wall: Leadership is action not position. May I become the best of myself and march with a tide of people strong with the vision that we are here to create a better tomorrow.


Three cheers to the people in my life who have led me this far. Three cheers the next chapter of this spirit filled path! Thank you all.

Forward!

                Allow me to introduce myself. I am a humanist who believes in the exponential potential of the individual existence. I believe we have the power to achieve the best of ourselves. I believe that we should evolve spiritually, mentally, and emotionally daily. I believe that one voice can change the world for the better. I believe we all have an obligation to our soul to do the best we possibly can with this blessing of a life we were given. I promise to give all that I have to achieve the full power of my destiny.

                I have seen in my lifetime a rapid rise in technology, new levels of awareness in our Global Ecology, and spirituality converging like tides connecting cultures from all over our Earth. The promise of a better tomorrow excites me to my deepest spiritual core and I know I will see great amber waves of change before the day I offer up my last breath. I believe this will be achieved by a new empathic understanding of all cultures, religions, and creeds. There are many threads that tie our individual cultures together. Through every individual perception there are commonalities that link us together as one human race. It is my goal to offer all of me in the pursuit of higher knowledge, empathic spiritual perception and a raised awareness in our global sphere.

                As a musician, poet, painter and woman of a renaissance nature, I know I have the power to achieve many great things. I am actively involved in this community, the community of Rochester, New York, as well as many communities across our globe. This Earth speaks to me with many voices that represent many languages, many cultures and many spiritual perceptions. I am honored to be an oracle in a time of great change. I believe this decade will show me many great things as I complete my Bachelor’s Degree in Psychology, my Master’s Degree in Writing and Poetics, and my Doctorate in Philosophy.

                I am actively engaged in this community and offer my time as a powerful speaker to deliver knowledge to a public that is hungry for collective change. I am an active participant in many organizations such as RAINN, Write Life, and the UHURU Solidarity Movement in order to perpetuate the spread of knowledge in hopes to bring empowerment to all peoples and unite this global population. I intend to travel to every sector of this Earth and speak the words given to me by the Divine. I am the author of a very active blog (rainchristi.blogspot.com) that offers words of a political, economic, and spiritual nature to people who are here to work together toward a better day.

                My first album, After the Rain, is now global and reaching the lives of a diverse group of people daily. My second album, recently recorded in my home studio in Rochester, will be released this summer. I do much speaking and campaigning regarding things such as rape, domestic violence, sexually related diseases and many other topics that can raise community awareness and empower victims to find the healing they need. I have accomplished many things this lifetime so far. The most exciting part for me is that I have only just begun! Thank you for the opportunity to further my education at USF. I look forward to being an active part of the Honors Program.

 

                Forward!