Ambien

Breaking down spoken pieces
Words gone arye
These thoughts of mine
Never stop
Inside this rapid cycling brain
Well suited to my name
Go ahead & call me Rain
My pain is the Mother's tears
Years of built up emotion
Oceans of energy
Remembering me
In every orifice of this life
My strife is only due
To those things done incorrectly
And I continue suspecting
When we're going to do this right
Sight over sound
I am glad that you found me
Now
I am awake but still dreaming
Finding meaning in every image
Presented to me like puzzle pieces
Releasing hope
For a picture completed
Seating floats through memories
Competing for space
In my cognitive race
Waiting for a page in my journal
To write themselves remembered
Relevant to all things unsaid
Unspoken but never broken
We are not the spokes in the wheel
We are the vehicles of change
Rearranging Tetris pieces
Until I am as effective
As I ever will be
These wings of freedom
Sing new melodies
Harmony yet unsung
Sleep with me
And by that I mean
Lay next to me and close your eyes
Ride waves of cloud consciousness
Restlessness dissipates
And pillows of dreams
Mean I will wake up
Ready to face the day
Clay pots rot over time
Holding wine
But I feel sublime
When I sleep at your side
Tides roll in and out
Of mindful thought
Wrought with circadian rhythms
And hearts brought to their knees
Freezing time
Present in the moment at hand
I feel restless
Longing to shake this state
Anticipating movement
Moving on the the next page
This chapter written
Doors open
Next phase
Trying so hard to ammend
My anxiety ridden ways
I breathe heavy these days
So many thoughts
Clogging my neural passageways
Keep my hope at bay
Their hatred cannot
Bury my brightest day
It comes in waves
All i want is for it to go away
Hear what I say?
Actively participate
In solving the maze
Better and better as I sway
Saying words to encourage my soul to stay
You were my greatest Zeitgeber
For my circadian soul day
Rhythm concentrated
As my heart began to sway
Amber odds were against me
And I wish I could've stayed
Against your chest
Divest my best
Rest in your bed that day
Mabye you wouldn't have decided
To play chicken with our flesh
Buffalo wild wings singing songs
A destiny less divine
I miss you all the time
Cycle upside down
I long to escape
I am already far from this place
No desire for time to waste
No desire to run the rat race
Spaces in between the noise
Conversations with lonely boys
No size or season for moral spoils
I need coils of recalcitration
You create a sensation in the
Base of my spine
But love is more than the
Tingling time spent yearning
I am annoyed with ordinary life
I need dancing hippie grass music
Fed by sunshine and water
Hopeful conversations filled with harmony
Advancing thoughts of world order
Progressive change
And peace filled momentum
I am persuing personal achievment
Checking my meter daily
Quarter feeding seeds for the sewing
Rowing my boat harder, stronger
Enjoying the moment more as I go
This Ambient life of mine

Risen

We're getting drunk
And We're driving
We're working hard
And We're surviving
What does life really mean?
And we're surmising
What's it all about?
And we're comprising.


The answer lies dormant
In the back of my brain
So many people
Like to call me insane
But for this beautiful life
I could never complain
And when I figure it out
I promise I'll explain


Dancing on moments
As higher we rise
Eyes of the gods
As we stand side by side
An individual mind
Cannot soar quite as high
As when we hold hands
And put down our pride


Let's forget about the money
And focus on pollution
A lack of education
Is what causes the confusion
Size matters not
In this seizmic solution
An individual who changes
Could fuel a revolution


You could become
A modern day Confuscius
Open up their eyes
And show them where the truth is
Greet a brand new day
Where it doesn't matter
Where the loot is
Follow the trunk of the tree
And show them where the root is


Go back to Khemet
And practice ancient mathematics
No need to find substance
In political acrobatics
There's plenty of food
To keep every people fed
We just need to rearrange
The contents of our head


So here is a call
To every person lying dormant
Here's an invocation
To every Nike on the doormat
Open the door
And see what's inside
Is the path you have chosen
Narrow or wide?


Here's an invitation
To every body holding breath
Honor the path of your destiny
And truly give your best
I promise you my heartbeat
Until I've no life left
I'll give every ounce of energy
So our future may be blessed


The greatest power
Of any people
Is to believe that we can change
One voice can make a difference
Begin a revolutionary wave
We are our salvation
The one's we've been waiting for
We have the key that fits the lock
And opens up the door


It is our time to rise!

Pisces

Simply the sight of you
Causes my soul to dance
The chemistry of our connection
Speaks stories
Of old school elegance
Your broad shoulders
Hold the planets upon them
Your abdomen conducts
Mathematical algorithms
Swimming upstream
This positive emotion
Potions released
As I sleep in your arms
The charm of you arises
From the honesty of your smile
The miles feel easy
As we engage the Nile
Flood waters rise
I feel the tides are turning
Looking forward to
The next chapter in my journey
Yearning for you
Already as you go
But the way you walked away
Says you already know
I feel so satiated
By one night on your chest
I'm divesting my soul
For yours to digest
We rest on the cosmic
Space between us
Trust simply understood
Not needing to be spoken
Broken hearts keep bodies cold
Lying alone hoping
Since the first day I met you
I've been scoping the view
Waiting for the moment
To write this poem of you
Truth is I mean it
When I say you are beautiful
God body rise
Erasing the cubicle
American dreaming
Will never do
And I am engaged
By the color of your hue
Soul speak deep
No labels needed
My nautical chart
Follow the stars I am heeding
Bleeding out sadness
Rising as I go
I would tell you
I love you
But you already know

Homeless?

Oh Hi there

Can I  talk to you

It will only take a minute or two

Do you have the time

To open up your mind

These things that I will share

You may find that you don’t care

I may get a little loud

But please don’t shut me out

For if you walk away

I won’t beg you much to stay

If you leave me be

I’ll tell my story to the tree

My dreams will become nightmares

Friendly smiles will turn to stares

My mind will turn to goo

Oh please let me talk to you

Oh no please don’t walk away

I am lonely here, please stay

There’s so much on my mind

Please say you have the time

I was a man in my last life

Please don’t smirk. It isn’t nice

My mother was a tree

Oh please don’t laugh at me

One time I flew into the sun

I never really told no one

So please don’t tell a soul

They’ll throw me back into the hole

I once had an orgy with the sky

And since then I’ve been unable to fly

If you don’t stop laughing

I’ll walk away

What was that

What did you say

You think I’m nuts

I’ll have to say

You’ve got some guts

I’m sick of all you crazy lads

Telling me you think I’m mad

I am the only one who is even close to sane

And all of you are all my pain

I’m tired of all your ugly lies

Constantly you make me cry

The man I was talking to was in my mind

And it seemed to me he had no time

So I sent him far away

I brushed my fingers through my hair

 And stripped my clothes till I was bare

And laid down upon the bench

I pulled my clothes to cover me

Closed my eyes and tried to sleep

I slept restlessly for an hour or two

Then the sun came up and my sleep was through

I scurried up

Got on my clothes

Leaned over to a nearby bush

And picked a bright red rose

(which was actually a weed)

I ran to the corner diner

Lifted the lid and climbed inside

The people there were sometimes friendly

It was a good place for me to hide

I ordered my breakfast quickly

And sat down at a booth nearby

My waitress brought my food

 And a rat scurried by

I ate and paid my fare

I left the place without a care

I had to work today

Today was not a day for play

I had to take a shower first

So I went to the  town bath hall

A neighboring restaurant hose

A bath is a pleasure that everyone knows

I took a bath

Inside my clothes

A man came out and said

Stop using my hose

I couldn’t believe the audacity

Of this man coming in and looking at me

People had no respect anymore

Manners to them were just a chore

I walked away

My bathing cut short

I had to run

I had to get to work

I grabbed my bag

And rushed to be on time

Oh I hoped this day

Would turn out to be fine

I rushed to my first stop

And picked up the lid

A loud blast

A gun

I  think I’m hit

My blood rushed out

My heart went numb

Well, hell this ain’t no fun

I went down with a bang

I fell with a thud

My beautiful dress was splattered with blood

Large footsteps walked up next to me

And said

Finally now my trash is free

Of these homeless little refugees

A look of horror crossed my face

And slowly I drifted from this place

My little life formed into a frown

And from the afterlife looking down

My thoughts by silence soon were drowned

And in my mind I could only hear

Those footsteps that had come so near

Now I’m free of the homeless

I was so confused

I didn’t understand

I wasn’t stupid

So I’ll be damned

Why I got shot by that big old man

For taking trash out of his garbage can

And why did he call me homeless

I had a home

I was not strange

And in no slight way was I derainged

So why then was my status changed

By a bullet from living to dead

He shot me in the head

But why?

I wasn’t homeless

Was I?

My Only Cure

Need I speak

For you should know

What feeling have I now

But feel you don’t and

Know you won’t so

Go and have your cow

Walk away and let me be

I just want to be alone

I’m tired of all this restlessness

I feel so re-abused

I don’t think you’ll ever know

The pain inside my head

And I don’t think you’d even wince

If tomorrow I were dead

My heart’s not here

It’s somewhere else

As forever it will be

And no one knows just where it’s at

And yes, that includes even me

So when you feel so all alone

Just bite your tongue and sigh and

Know that I don’t give a damn

Don’t bother asking why

I’ll live my life how I see fit

And then I’ll choose to die

So call me ass or hypocrite

Dreams are made of pie

You eat them and you shit them out

Turn around and eat some more

You get so drunk that you can’t stand

And pass out before the door

So wander on your aimless search

No answer will you find

For spirit and for spirit things are just a waste of time

This philosophy may kill me young

But at least I’m not a lie

So kill yourself of shave your head

Or join a cult or stay in bed

Cause I don’t care no more

I’m restless and awaiting life that only comes thru dying

I’m tired of fears and tired of tears and

Sick to death of trying

So find all of those who shut me out and lay on them the blame

And quietly just shut your mouth

As I fall and go insane

Cause I don’t care about your antics of

Saving me from harm

I’m sorry if I caused you pain

But save your pathetic charm

I’m not in love and I don’t give a damn

For what you feel

For all of life is one big lie

After all, nothing’s real

So feed my ego, Feed my pride

And feed me drugs until I die

Then no one can cause me pain

And no one can call me insane

Romanticism is for the birds

And love is just the same

I don’t ever want to know

The meaning of your game

So touch me not

For you will burn inside a fractured second

Go away

Leave me alone

And please don’t preach of heaven

For hell is all I’ll ever know

And for all I really care

You can take your worthless soul and go there

Worn and bare

For I am sick of being used

And being walked upon

And if it my dear were not for you

I would have already travelled on

For death is my companion

And soon I’ll slip away

And I’m sorry to inform you

It means nothing what you say

So get the hell away from me

And leave me here alone

For I have just got rid of you

My life is now my own

To live for death and ruin love

And spit my whit of bitterness upon the lucid sky

So hate me now or go and cry

It matters not to me

Just leave me here in this pool

Of worthless dark self pity

I hate you! Please just go away

I mean it now. I’m sure

Oh my god what have I done

You were my only cure

Flame Dancer

Deep into the cup
Cobalt blue
My turquoise bracelet
Belonged to you
In between pages
Of rainbow hue
I slipped sweet melodic
Empowering view
She dances daily
Upon the stars we are
Elavated slavery
Reflected in part
Particles of perfection
Like atomic waves
And we are simply
"The Keeper of the Flame"
(Nina Simone)

Sea

Sparking waves
Against traditional thought
May seem as treachery to some
Summing up our differences
As though they
Should be added at all
Small minds
May have not left room
To invoke their ignorance
To be seen as anything
Other than innocence
Ignorance is in deed
The absence of knowledge
Fodder and soldered to
The wrought iron fence
Defenses arise
When one is afraid
Perhaps
When one receives
The sensation
Of being attached
Attracted to opposites
To quash the need to
Understand
White-washing the defenseless
Seems a little senseless
To me
As though the only right way to be
Is the image of right
They have created
For all the world to see