My Only Cure

Need I speak

For you should know

What feeling have I now

But feel you don’t and

Know you won’t so

Go and have your cow

Walk away and let me be

I just want to be alone

I’m tired of all this restlessness

I feel so re-abused

I don’t think you’ll ever know

The pain inside my head

And I don’t think you’d even wince

If tomorrow I were dead

My heart’s not here

It’s somewhere else

As forever it will be

And no one knows just where it’s at

And yes, that includes even me

So when you feel so all alone

Just bite your tongue and sigh and

Know that I don’t give a damn

Don’t bother asking why

I’ll live my life how I see fit

And then I’ll choose to die

So call me ass or hypocrite

Dreams are made of pie

You eat them and you shit them out

Turn around and eat some more

You get so drunk that you can’t stand

And pass out before the door

So wander on your aimless search

No answer will you find

For spirit and for spirit things are just a waste of time

This philosophy may kill me young

But at least I’m not a lie

So kill yourself of shave your head

Or join a cult or stay in bed

Cause I don’t care no more

I’m restless and awaiting life that only comes thru dying

I’m tired of fears and tired of tears and

Sick to death of trying

So find all of those who shut me out and lay on them the blame

And quietly just shut your mouth

As I fall and go insane

Cause I don’t care about your antics of

Saving me from harm

I’m sorry if I caused you pain

But save your pathetic charm

I’m not in love and I don’t give a damn

For what you feel

For all of life is one big lie

After all, nothing’s real

So feed my ego, Feed my pride

And feed me drugs until I die

Then no one can cause me pain

And no one can call me insane

Romanticism is for the birds

And love is just the same

I don’t ever want to know

The meaning of your game

So touch me not

For you will burn inside a fractured second

Go away

Leave me alone

And please don’t preach of heaven

For hell is all I’ll ever know

And for all I really care

You can take your worthless soul and go there

Worn and bare

For I am sick of being used

And being walked upon

And if it my dear were not for you

I would have already travelled on

For death is my companion

And soon I’ll slip away

And I’m sorry to inform you

It means nothing what you say

So get the hell away from me

And leave me here alone

For I have just got rid of you

My life is now my own

To live for death and ruin love

And spit my whit of bitterness upon the lucid sky

So hate me now or go and cry

It matters not to me

Just leave me here in this pool

Of worthless dark self pity

I hate you! Please just go away

I mean it now. I’m sure

Oh my god what have I done

You were my only cure